I started this journey 2 years ago this month. This was the last time we were a family on a vacation together. That wasn't really the start of all things but the real turning point. We quickly slid down hill from there until the S and, well you know the rest of the story.....
I have learned so very much during this time. At first I was not a quick learner. I made a lot of mistakes. Even as I type the word mistake, tears are falling from my eyes.
I guess I am very reflective today, as I have come to the end of my R journey. XH called last night to tell me that XOW is pregnant. They have not seen each other since Feb, nor do they have plans to be together. He has known for a while, even during my last trip to Seattle.
I just cannot imagine how this will affect our two sons, 23 and 19. He plans to tell them this weekend. I’m not sure how that will go. He is a mess right now. Said he can barley function.
Mistakes?
It is ironic as that is what really brought XH and I together, as I was pregnant, when we were so very young and in love. I have always thought that God works in wonderful ways and not only did he bring us together, but gave us a wonderful S. Now that idea has been taken away from me too.
I have nothing more to give this R.
I am grateful for the lessons I have learned and I have no regrets for trying to have a R with the person I thought was my true soul mate.
Most of all I am so blessed to have spent the past year on this board with all of you. I will never be able to appropriately express my gratitude to all of you for your wisdom, support, and friendship. I wish each and every one of you the very best. I will keep you in my prayers.
