Hi Everyone~ Thanks for stopping by! I have been keeping up with your sit, although not posting much these days.
After last Friday's middle of the night phone call, he called me during the day on Sunday. He asked if he had called me Friday night. I guess it was a little foggy for him. He did remember some of the conversation, and the part of me calling him names. It wasn't a bad conversation and I think he understood some of my frustration.
He seems to be back into the "I've made such a mess of my life" mode. He is NOT a happy camper.
On Monday he called me to say that several upper management people were let go from his company, including his boss. The next day he was offered either a lesser position or a severance package. He called me to talk about it. It was really less about the immediate decision, but his life in general. He said that he is not really happy with what he is doing, but doesn't have the courage to change it. That he is a weak person. That he has created the situatiion that his life is in. He said that he is afraid and a coward. That he is looking for something that he will never find. We talked about how all the answers to his questions and feelings are inside of him. He doesn't know if he is strong enough to figure it out and that I deserve better. He said that whenever the chips are down, I'm the one he turns to. Hummmmm
He is really hurting and for the first time I didn't rush to try to fix it or make him feel better. I let him know that I am here if he needs anything, but left it at that. I didn't try to own the resposibility for him feeling bad.
Is that me dropping the rope???
He did text page me the next day to say thanks for all the support. We paged several times and he thanked me like three times.
Thursday I sent him a page saying I was sending him a smile and he smiled back. Other than that no contact.
Well that is really all there is to update. Thank you to all of you who check up on me! I keep everyone here in my prayers.
