I want to begin by saying that I've started a post to you a zillion times over the past week and have been unable to complete it for a variety of reasons. Last night, I had just begun and the phone rang...
It sounds as though you are really where the rest of us on the joint thread are... while it's comforting to know that others are traveling this path, I'm wondering why? Is it because we've been on it together for a long time? Is it because some of the issues that are being discussed are forcing us to rethink things? Is it some natural stage in moving through all this crap?
I wish I knew. And I sure as heck don't have any answers. Just more questions.
I don't think that anyone here would negate that DB gave us some terrific skills to work with. But I really think that there comes a point in a process where the skills no longer matter--it's the core issues? I mean, the skills are terrific. They can help put a sitch into a light where examining all aspects and sides of the problems are possible.
But is there a guarantee that we can truly accept what we see? (We know the answer--it's just a rhetorical question.)
In my own case, I think the amount of time that has passed from the beginning until now is taking its toll on me. I'm really beginning to see things with more clarity. And while I haven't ruled anything out or in, I'm no longer pretending that they are not valid concerns or observations.
Getting back to you... Wonder, I sense a similar internal struggle here. While I don't expect your next post to come out and identify what you do and don't want and/or need, I think your true inner self has some idea on how you feel about all this.
I, too, am looking around at men as potential prospects. I'm really approaching a state where I'm ready to start dating. Whether or not that man is Mr. Wonderful is out with the jury. (Just being interested in my new car is not enough for me, you know! )
God forbid the day I start actually contemplating having sex again? While the thought sort of terrifies me, it's also exciting as hell. If it's in the water, well so be it. We've all been working so hard for something worthwhile that we've put some very important issues on a back burner.
Somehow, those less critical issues are starting to stand up and force us to take notice. At least here in my world.
I like the Cainercast. I'm an Aries, while Mr. W. is Aquarius and both my girls are fellow Pisceans (with you). I've found that his horoscopes are often dead on. Does that mean our fate is sealed by someone else's thoughts? Absolutely not. I just see an issue that is challenging me with more clarity when I see what Cainer has to write for the day.
Here's to wishing you happier contemplations.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
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Betsey 
