Thanks everyone for your encouragement and you replies.. I really appreciate all of you.. And so desperatley need to talk to everyone.. I feel it's the only place I have to go right now..
Kay I do like to garden but did not get on going this year. I also had set a goad to walk 2 miles 2x's a week and haven't walked for two weeks. I had only been walking 2 miles once a week but I was still walking.. So with that in mind I was thinking that tonight when it cools off I will go walk that does help my mind also. I don't have much clarity and am seeking it desperatley at the moment..
I don't know if my husband wants to make it work.. He texted me this morning and said "I'm sorry I mad you mad". I moved out of the bedroom, this is a first for me. My clothes are still in there as there is no other place for them. So when I got home from work I went to change and noticed his weeding ring on the dresser so I took it. I am sure he will be angry about it but my point is if he doesn't want it what does it matter? Of course that's not the first time either of us have taken off our wedding rings.. I am going to tell him I need some space for awhile. I am always so willing to jump back into things. This time it is bothering me so much I just cannot allow myself to do that. I don't want to end my marriage but I don't want to lose myself or continue to tolerate being treated this way.. I have been working really hard on the marriage and am hurt that all he can see is my flaws.. I don't want to keep giving him the message that I will put up with it and it's okay because by jumping back in that's the message I am sending.. Well I am not okay with that message today and need more clarity.. I am not declairing our marriage over but I need time to sort things out.. Thanks everyone I appreciate you all sharing and being here..
