Friday after work I got a new car, I have been contemplating purchasing a new car for the last several months. By the time I was on my way home from the dealership Xh was on my side of town... He stayed the night with me, saturday I had to finalize the paperwork and Xh went to get his windows tinted. We had made plans to get together later that evening. By the time I got done running my errands it was early evening, I contacted Xh to tell him I was on my way but I had to stop by and have ANOTHER paper signed by the guy I used to date. I asked him to go with me and he declined. I got to the place idiot works and he put me off for about an hour, by the time I finally had him sign the paper Xh was already on his way to his cousins house for a party, I told him I would just meet him there. So okay I FINALLY get to his cousins house, Xh greeted me happily. A while later I went inside with his cousins wife and we start girl-talking. This is when things get confusing... Xh always tells his friends and family that I had a breast augmentation so conversation quickly turned to this subject. Typical questions, When, size before & after, etc. Then the big question of what they look like. I didn't see a problem showing them, Well needless to say he was pissed. Granted these are just my thoughts, I could be totally wrong. There was no telling what he was thinking about what had happened between me and my x, and he had been drinking for a while before I even got there and I had been there for a couple of hours so that is more drinking but why is it okay for him to grab them grope them and fondle them infront of god and everyone but it is not okay for me to show them off???? He was very cold and distant, then he leaves. I call him and tell him that I think we need to talk, he said "I think so" we meet down the street in a gas station parking lot, we talk, he yells, I cry. He tells me that "your single, I'm single" I said I did not consider myself to be single, he then says "We talked about this" Well if that is the case and we are "single" I have one question... Why is he so darn mad if we are not "together"? So what is it, We are together when it is convenient and not together when that is convenient as well? Utterly confused is what I am. Sunday we talk a few times nothing really about what had happened the night before. Monday we talk several times throught the day and we both acted as if nothing was wrong. Me on the other hand; I am beating myself up about the arguement we got into and wondering how far back this is going to put us... Monday evening we talk and he tells me how tired he is, I suggested he take a nap, he asks me to call and wake him in an hour, so like a good little girl I do. I am so upset!
Long story short, things are not the same so it looks like I have no choice but to go dark again... The good news is that for the next couple of weeks I am going to be so busy packing, I (hopefully) will not have time to throw myself a pitty party. Time to pick myself up, dust myself off and boost my PMA. Things will work out.
Halo
Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.
It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.
