I liked your first post tonight about ending your visits to the counselor. And the outdoor activity group & the musician also peaked my interest! Good things are happening . . .
And then, your second post. I'm so sorry about your dog. . . You've got so many things going on at once!
I can only hope that tomorrow will bring you a good day! I wish there was something more I could do than send you hugs and good thoughts....
Quote: I ready and waiting for some EXTRAORDINARILY good times to make up for this year. Bring it on!
You said it, girl! And I know they are coming... with all of the sweet, kind, positive energy you've been putting out there, something IS headed your way. Or some things, plural.
Remember. What you focus on expands. And so perhaps it makes sense to focus on positive developments for YOU.
SO sorry to hear about your furry baby. Will be sending her lots of healing vibes and prayers. Vent all you need to... I can very much relate to not needing another thing to deal with. It's a legitimate feeling, so let yourself have it for a bit, knowing at the same time, you can handle anything that comes your way-- as you have been proving for some time now.
Good for you about the C. I did that a while ago and check in very occasionally. I think the time comes to put the tools to practice, just like with reading. We know when their insight will be useful again and where to find them when it is.
Just checking in....how is your darling dog today? She was so lively just last week. And.....if you find that good things are going on at the singles outdoors group, will you let me know? I just need some social activity around here (not necessarily hot dates, but a little attention would be okay....).
H got back from his trip to the wilderness (Montana) fishing with the boys. He sent me an email saying he'd had a really good time and that he was glad he hadn't cancelled it because he really needed it. There is no news on his brother, tomorrow and he and another brother (he has three) are going up to the missing brother's town and they will break open his storage shed and see if there are any clues. Poor H. We traded a couple of emails back and forth. I told him there are plenty of people still praying for Brother. H is not religious, but I though he might appreciate that anyway.
In the meantime, I had a really enjoyable day of emailing the musician guy. He is smart and funny and quirky. I can't tell you how nice it is to have someone to have a little fun with, even on a virtual level. It really helps when I get too down about H (was really grieving H today at times).
Hey Azure~ (((((AZURE))))) Hang in there, you have got way too much going on right now! I am glad the musician guy is cheering you up...a little male attention goes a long way these days!!
Have a good weekend!
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
It has been awhile since I have read everything and posted, you sound so different now. More melancoly (sp) and you flow, if that makes any sense. I am so sorry tho hear about your BIL, and that there has been no news yet.
Maybe he just decided to drop out for awhile. I am thinking of you. I am with you on the all I can handle right now.. I have thougt that I must have been a real b@#$ (rhymes with rich)in a previous life, because I haven't done anything in this one to deserve all of this crap.
I have more to say, I am just a little foggy, mentally. It takes longer for brain to function lately.
jenhoco
Sometimes the lights all shining on me, other times I can barely see. Lately it occurs to me, what a long, strange trip it's been. -- Grateful Dead
Azure, Long time. Sorry about your dog. Hope the shots help. I know how you feel. W got a dog earlier this spring. I didn't want it. But it grew on me and I was just getting to like it. Now she gave it away. I asked her not to. She said, it is my dog and I'll do with it what I want. I miss the dog. Dogs show unconditional love to the people who care for them. My M sure doesn't work that way. If only the W would have left and the dog would have stayed. Sorry. Had to say that.
It is interesting that you look at your Wedding Anniversary the way you do. You must still love H. I question even counting the last 2 years of my M.
Yes, you must have a lot of good things coming. Look for them. I always tell Rae_Jean that. I do think that if you look for the good things, you will find them. If you focus on them, they can overshadow the bad, instead of the other way around. I think I have some good advice. I just don't always follow it myself.
Wishing you a good holiday weekend.
Hugs.
Ron
My new goal #1. Find happiness and hold onto it. Forget everything else. It doesn't matter. (Happiness helpers: Respect, Friendship, Humor, Music, Passionate Sex)
Oh my god, BIL did it. H and his other brother just found him just now up near some site that BIL's friends mentioned to them. I don't know anything more than that, except that H was completely broken up and couldn't really talk because the sheriff was there and it was a "crime scene."
And the outdoor activity group & the musician also peaked my interest! Good things are happening . . .
