Thanks for dropping by. Having kind of a PMA struggling day today -- sort of drifting around rootlessly, full of vague (or not so vague) anxiety. Haven't heard from H, he's gone dark in the last 48 hours or so, but I assume there's no news. He was going to spend the day with his mom yesterday out of cell and email range, and then maybe go out-of-state on a fishing trip where he would also be out of range. I suppose I could call his mom, but I"m kind of worried about my boundaries in this whole thing. I've repeatedly offered what help I could, I guess I'll wait for H to call me if he needs anything. It's a sad, worrisome situation, and one where my role is unclear. Of course, concerned friends have been warning me away "you don't want to get enmeshed with this siutation." Not that it really matters what they say as I have learned to follow my heart and gut. But it doesn't make life any easier. Meanwhile, my dog's leg started collapsing today so I'm concerned and the vet is closed until Monday. Then there's still my dad to think about, and my anniversary in three days. I feel like there are so many topics to try to keep my mind from dwelling on.
OK! However!
Must not get too funky monkey. Must dwell on the positives so they'll expand:
* Had a great time meeting GBO last night and look forward to more get-togethers.
* It's a beautiful day and my new garde (inspired by Totally) is blossoming.
* Have a choice of not one, but two, parties tomorrow.
* Have exchanged a few emails in the last few days with an eligible friend of a friend, who is a musician and seems smart and interesting. It's nice to have someone to think about a little bit. And he lives fairly close, so if we hit it off, we could meet.
Still gladly accepting all prayers for BIL and hugs for me!
