I am 36, with 2 children divorced. 5 years ago I met and fell in love with my partner, our sex life was the best I had ever had wonderful caring, he cuddled me just perfect. 6 months into our relationship his Grandfather died, his sex drive went on a fast downward slope, which was understandable. After a while I started talking to him about it and trying to get it back on track...this is where the fustration starts. From that time on I have had these answers from him of why we have basically no sex life - 1. Grandads death 2. Frightened of getting me pregnant (we were using 2 types of contraception) 3. Dont like condems 4. hard to get an errection 5. now he has a bad back. We are now in the month of June and we have had sex 3 times this year. I say sex because thats what it is to me by the time we get to the point that he his going to playalong I am so horny that it is just sex...not making love and taking our time. As a woman I feel rejected, I am not a model size, I am a size 18, I already have body issues that are made worse by the fact that I do nothing for my man, I feel like he doesnt fancy me, I am fat and ugly. He hates talking about it and gets angry, I try and leave the subject alone but in the end I miss being desired. I miss making love, I miss kissing I miss feeling wanted and needed that way. I get so angry, so fustrated. I have done the making special dinners, running bubble baths candles etc, back rubs and I have even booked weekends away.....he hates them just me and him...now I hate them. I feel dirty for wanting sex, even perverted, god I would love a dirty weekend away, although I am not a sex every night girl by no means, once a week or even a fortnight would be good...but we are now averaging 1 every 2 months....HELP
