I must admit even when I read some posts that don't make me feel particularly good, make me question MY sanity I tend to to start a pity party even then...like okay then I'll just do "insert here" if that's what everyone wants and then be miserable becuase it wasn't really what I wanted to do. I let other people's mood affect my moods even in my 3D life.
T2, bless your heart, I know from the beginning you've want to kick H's *ss, but I've never been that way--secretly but would NEVER follow through.
My sarcastic/blaming nature is more than gone with my H. Oh it was a big part of the breakdown of our R. That and my constant nagging/bitching! So when he accuses me of it now, well I know darn well he doesn't know what he's talking about, I'm more amazed than anything else I guess. That is still stuck in the past.
Maybe it IS time for me to start being more honest with H.
I have one vent, when H does stay at OW's she gives him food. Last night he took a granola bar out of his lunch box and it was laying on the counter. I unwrapped it and threw in the field next door for the mice and rabbits to eat!
That I'm making lunch for him and that OW is doing the same makes me cringe some days. This was a complaint of H's and I'm sure H told OW about it and thus the reason OW's sure to give him food. Yuck! Makes ME not want to.
and then be miserable becuase it wasn't really what I wanted to do. I let other people's mood affect my moods even in my 3D life. 
