My heart is totally going out to you. I feel like I need a case of Dramamine for this roller coaster ride we're on. Just when we think that we know which end is up and that the A is over it rears it's ugly head again. August will mark my one year anniv of knowing about the A and it has totally been a roller coaster of thinking it was over when it wasn't. Wanting to believe and trust my H when he wasn't trustworthy yet.
SO maybe my best advice is to ask yourself the question will going on this vacation help further my goals? I think that you would probably decide that it will.
As Christians we have to believe that the devil is real and is on a seek and destroy mission. He doesn't want us to have happy healthy families and well adjusted kids. He loves divorce and adultery and other things that grieve God.
So keep your head up, keep praying, keep dbing and don't let the devil win. He wants to steal our joy.
Someone told me that things get darkest just before the dawn and I think thats true.
