well we're back from vacation in the middle of nowhere. kids had a great time and well I didn't have such a bad time either but I'm glad to be home.
we shared some fun activities with the kids and I suppose that's what a family vacation is for.
h spent just about every night falling asleep on the couch watching baseball or the news.
car rides were spent in silence with the exception of one brief conversation about how people aquire second homes.
all I can say is I'm NOT looking forward to our next vacation planned for sometime in october as it will be just h and I and I don't really care to be away from the kids for boredom with h.
h is who he is...this IS the man I met long ago and I just never realized that I don't particularly care for this type of guy.
He will always choose work over play (he took and made phone calls for work each evening...one afternoon the kids and I tired of waiting for him to get off the phone went off to the pool ourselves)
He will always choose sports over the conversation and/or company of others (no limited to his w and kids...he'll even ignore guests to watch)
He will always prefer to watch news over a sitcom or movie
He will never be a wonderer or conversationalist
He will never dream or share his dreams
He will always prefer to be alone rather than in the company of friends.
I know many that still bother to read my threads find me to be very negative...I'm sorry that's what comes across...that is just what my m is.
I on the other hand am not negative at all...I love life and love people. Heck I started both a book club and a moms night out club for that reason. I will not sit and rot away in silence on a couch simply because I married a workaholic.
honestly I don't feel bad for myself I feel bad for my h...what is his life? he gives all of himself to things that will never offer any real reward...what is work? oh sure it pays the bills but it is robbing him of any life..the customers that he gives up his life for will not be there for him when he's old..will the teams he chooses to ignore real people to watch ever be there for him? I doubt it.
I've heard it said before "no man is an island" seems to me that this man is sure trying hard to be one! I think if h were lost on a deserted island he'd not create a "wilson" as tom hanks did in castaway...he'd instead draw out game plays in the sand and create some sort of way to grow and cut a lawn there. He'd be happy in his solitude...perhaps that's where I should leave him.
