just taking a peek in. have a lot of vacations planned some with the kiddos and some with just h (in the fall and winter) nice to have something to look forward to and was able to let h know that though I enjoy having vaca time to look forward to it would also be nice to know the person I'm going away with...in other words some just plain ole regular hanging out time too..h of course is busy as usual with work and is tired when he gets home. I've been keeping myself busy with stuff around the house, the kids and my various clubs.
If I had to rate my m as it is now I'd say it's pretty good, there's always room for improvement and let's face it the childrearing years are probably one of the more draining times in a marriage. about the only thing that troubles me is still the question of why this all happend. So many people here can and do find fault in themselves for their spouses indiscretions and I'm sorry folks I'm not perfect but this had very little if anything to do with me. Classic stuff is what it is...new home, desire for second child, work stress, mini mlc etc etc.
OK so I lied the only question that continues to eat at me (as some like to say) is not why but what. I know what h has been willing to share but feel at times that he's being less than honest about some things...namely was it ever a pa.
been down this road already. just stuck in it is all...I don't let it interfere with how things go around here...it just bugs me at times to not know if I know what I want to know or if I already know and am refusing to believe it.
