It's really difficult not to let my imagination take over. A friend of mine just told me that my dear H was at work the day after I left with the girls telling everyone that he was taking off a couple of days and going to KC and wouldn't be available for calls. That's where OW has just moved and taken another job. That was going to be my line. If he went to KC or even continued calling, I was going to have to ask him to leave. Now that she's moved, I was hoping for a new start. But if he's still calling, if he really did go there for whatever reason, I was going to call it quits. Now what? When I asked why I couldn't get in touch with him for 2 days, he told me a really pathetic story about having a rough day at work, going out and getting really drunk and calling in to work sick the next day. He also said he'd been having problems with the new cell phone he had to have and he wasn't getting his calls. Now today my friend told me the story about going to KC. I feel like I have to take a stand for myself. I CAN live without him if I have to. My children and I deserve better than a man who continually lies to us. I had told myself I would be mysteriously unavailable during this trip. So, he beat me to it. But, with him, it's not so much of a mystery anymore.


Each experience in life has formed me, become part of me, made me stronger.