Quote: He admits I'm working at this more intently than he is, but does nothing to meet me in the middle.
Mellanie,
It's funny that you make this comment because my h too admitted (at one time) to not giving it his all. A while after his return home I was getting fed up (what else is new) with his seeming lackluster aproach at repairing our m...I had asked for simple defined things from him and wasn't getting them...I had had enough and called a d lawyer for myself. The night before I was supposed to meet with the l h made this statment "I don't blame you, if I had been putting forth as much effort as you have and been getting as little in return I'd probably want to give up too" of course he then went on to say he wasn't sure what he wanted to do..knew that he couldn't really ask me not to go to the l but didn't want me to go..he also at that time still didn't know if he fully wanted to vest himself in the m either though. I think he forgets that he has actually made such statments when he now decides to make statments like "no matter what I do it's never enough" etc etc.
There are times when I feel like h does want this m and there are other times well I feel like h just came home to "do the right thing" for his children and of course me since I'm part of that "family" but not that he truly came back out of a desire to have a life with me.
On that note, I don't know that I will ever fully trust h. There's always something telling me he's not the honest man I thought him to be and that his indiscretion was not a one time (one person) thing. Perhaps this feeling would be lessened if h were more vested in the r but who knows.
I occassionally consider having him followed but know that now is not the time to gather evidence as now is not a time that I'd do much about it anyway.
