I know it's difficult. My situation is very similar. It's very hard on the ego and self image when you're constantly rejected. But for me, the feeling of constantly being the only one working at it is just drainig. It's more than self esteem; it just seems to drain the spirit. You're constantly working. You're constantly looking for signs and trying to analyze every little nuance to see if you're getting through. You're always torn between trying to spark some interest and trying to maintain some dignity. Like you, I myself have been to the point where I feel burned out - like it's just not worth the effort. All I can say is to hang in there.
I have nothing to offer, no advice to dispense, no magic bullet. But I do want you to know, you and anyone else who has commented on this board, I don't know any of your real names, but I have written down your screen names and I make a special effort to pray for each of you by name every evening. I know how difficult it is, and even though I don't know who you are, God does.
