You sound like you are in a state of confusion and anxiety. Trying to juggle your needs with what you percieve are his feelings. This is a sign of "emotional fusion" and not a good thing. Simply take a deep breath, relax, realize that he is a completely separate person. Then simply say what you want and emphasize that he has a choice to respond and that you will be evaluating your choices (yes, you have choices) based upon his.
It takes very little effort, just lots of guts. Good luck.
Anywhere is walking distance if you have the time
-Steven Wright
