That's EXACTLY where I am. Of course, I never had a good, or even acceptable sex life with my W, but you hit my feelings dead center. I still have all of the desire for sex that I ever had, but it's becoming more and more isolated from my feelings for her. It makes other more physical women very tempting - and I don't want them to be. I feel like even my once in a blue moon hand job is a burden to her - and I HATE that. I hate it so much that I don't even want the HJ. A hand job, while not really what I want, would still be marginally acceptable if it were done with passion and desire. When it's not, my love bank is empty as well.