I agree totally with IJ. Something else I have picked up from the book is that we wait around for feelings to change before we change our behaviors.. I know I have. But it is when we change the behaviors that the feelings change. I hope I make sense. Also I read my last post and I hope I didn't sound harsh. What I said I ment but I wasn't very clear..I didn't realize that. And CeMar I can also relate so much it hurts.. It makes me feel crazy at times because I can get other men to find me attractive but all I really want is H to find me attractive and I don't feel it is there something I have struggled with for three years. Hang in there and I think IJ has words of wisdom. All I can say Is I understand and hope it gets better.. ;-)