Quote: I know that at this point, celibacy will not work for me.
I guess that's the issue isn't it? In 28+ years, I've NEVER had a truely enjoyable sexual experience with my W. And damned few experiences at all for that matter. My forced celibacy keeps me angry, hurt, and periodically depressed because it doesn't work for me. But my only choices are to be celibate or to leave. I've chosen to be celibate. I'm still working on changing the sitch with my W, but in the cold hard light of day I have to admit that things will probably never change. I'll keep trying though.
