Actually I do seem to be starting to level out emotionally!

I was hoping that stress over the dental appointment was the main contributor.

I am very pleased with myself this afternoon.

I found a pattern and I DEFEATED it! For today anyway.

I had sent David an e-mail yesterday, acknowledging I know that Monday's are very busy and I realize he possibly can't but wanted to check and see if any chance he could take me to this appt. as I know the last time I had one pulled they asked if I had someone to drive me and they gave me something extra, I was awake but sort of fuzzy.

When I didn't hear from him, the stress from fear of the appt. built and I wanted to go off on him emotionally. I did not! I posted a little of it and I sat with the rest of it.

I did call him about 1:30 just to check and he said he had not even read e-mail as he was having system problems.

I said well that probably answers my question. He laughed and asked what his answer was, I said No. He said ok.

I explained and he said he didn't see any chance that he could get out and made some other suggestions. Then suggested I have someone from work drop me off. I said and then how do I get home? Just stay at dentist office?

He laughed again and said he hadn't thought that far ahead.

So he seemed in pretty good mood especially for having problems.

But I was calm and laughing with him and brief.

I think I did a good job.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"