THANK YOU for the encouragement. I was feeling sort of down is why I hadn't posted before now.
WHY can my mom still make me feel like I can do nothing right????
The house is in a subdivision. There is no getting around that fact. But when I was going through my first divorce, just having my own apartment was nice and the fact that I didn't have to do any maintenance.
This house is all brick, looks well maintained, freshly painted. So I can start out without having a lot to do.
Where I live now is a LOT of maintenance. The barn, board fencing, picnic shelter and 2 acres which is an arena and 3 separate pastures with board fencing. Which is beautiful when maintained. Like as in kept in repair and painted!!!
But it is too much for one person.
My mom has always lived in the country and I know that is why I am concerned about moving to town and having neighbors is the feelings I grew up with her having.
She used to almost never go to my dad's family get togethers so my whole life I have struggled with large family get togethers of my husbands.
I know it is time to break free and be my own person, but right now I feel pretty vulnerable.
Oh yes the new house, if I get it, does have a security system, I mean besides the shelties!!!
You are exactly right, I do see the day when I will want to start doing things again.
My whole life to this point has been spent in the country maintaining the horses and property.
It is time for a new stage of my life and no I haven't got there yet, but I think it is out there for me as soon as I figure out how to get there!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
So I can start out without having a lot to do.
