thought i would check in... I havent gotten to the library but started reading the chapters here online.. thanks for the advice...

OM messaged me yesterday, i wasnt on... but recieved it later.. it said "you have forgotten me" with a sad face... I felt awful... I started typing back to him.. saying i had not forgotten him i had just been super busy, and I was working on my marriage.. I shouldnt have written anything however but in a way its good.. I wrote that and sent it, then checked my messages later and he wrote something sexual.. "i just got out of the shower" with a big grin... why didnt i see this before.... it really is all sexual.. this man doesnt know me... he just wanted to play.. and i fell for it.. i'm sooo mad at myself.. i thought he had a real emotional connection to me.. and i was the fool.. and almost risked everything problem is i didnt say to him, "dont talk to me in that way, i'm a married woman!" Nope, did i say that, instead i said "your a tease... anyway what do you have planned for the weekend." He hasnt answered.. and i hope he doesnt... I did so well last night with H, we played video games together after the kids went to bed, and he wasnt distant at all.. I brought my guitar out yesterday too and started singing again.. something i havent done since my Internet addiction... I stopped living to talk to OM... I want to live again! Thanks for listening..