Yes, staying out of the chatrooms will def. help the situation. I sat down and told H everything last night, right down to taking to OM on the phone I told him I could not be trusted with the Internet. We have decided that I can only go on when he is beside me, and he will be taking the Internet card with him to work. I hate that it has come to this, but i seriously have no control over myself right now.. it sounds so silly, but i'm addicted..:(
I had a rough time not signing on last night... i had to keep telling myself that my family is more important. Thank you again for your support and advice. I will have to start working on me and my self esteem. I feel awful for hurting him, but I couldnt live with the guilt of him not knowing the whole picture. now that he knows I will have to work on building up our marriage. I am going to go to the library and get DB and DR this week. I will have plenty of extra time without being able to be online. This is going to be so hard for me... Again i'm sure it sounds petty... Thanks again for listening to me...