Thank you so much for your support and honesty. I am still struggling, I read what you are saying, and I believe in everything that you said. It seems that it is all easier said then done. There is absolutely nothing that this man can give me more than my husband. There is absolutely nothing better then being able to be in love with a man you can touch.. You are all right, I have to end this Now. I have tried in the past and failed miserably. We go to the same chatroom and he was there talking with other women. This should just show me that i am just another screenname, but instead it makes me crazy jealous. So then i start talking to him again. I know that the answer is to just not go to that chatroom anymore and to realize that my Marriage and family is more important. I know he loves me even with my flaws... I'm such a mess. Why isnt this easier.. it should be straight and to the point.. Thank you for your posts.. I need to hear this stuff.. maybe if i hear it enough i will make the right decision. Hugs...