I know that most of the posts i have read, are from those of you that are surviving and recovering from an affair. I hope that you will not judge me and help me to fix my marriage. A few months ago I met a man online and starting having daily conversations... we got to the point of having cybersex on webcam I'm not proud of this. I am 25 and have been married for 6 years, and with my husband for 12. we have two children together I know that I am being completely selfish and not thinking of my family. The man I have been talking to luckily lives many states away, he is single. My husband is a wonderful man, we have had many issues, but he has always taken care of me and is a wonderful father. I would regret leaving my marriage and I would regret ruining my family. With all this said, I am having a hard time stopping talking to this OM. My H knows about me talking to him, and has asked me to stop. I have become emotionally attached to this OM, and I am having a hard time stopping. I know the grass is not greener, but it is so much fun when talking to him... he doesnt know all of my flaws, he only thinks i am great...while my H has lots of complaints.. (he is not abusive, he just has normal expectations... house clean, laundry done ect...I dont want to paint a picture that i am lacking anything from my husband because i am not but why does it feel so good to be talking to this OM. I'm scared that I will continue to talk to this man and ultimately ruin my marriage. I have been reading everyones stories so that reality will sink in that i need to think about someone other than myself in this situation. I am addicted to OM attention... I suck it right up... How do I rebuild my own self esteem so that I dont need attention from Om and can just be satisfied with my husbands attention?? If you got this far, thank you.. and i'm sorry for all that you all have gone through... I'm sure it will be hard to give support to someone who is on the other side, but I really do want to make my marriage work... I'm scared Everytime i go to end it with the OM, it feels almost like a breakup and only lasts a day or so before i am talking with him again then i am left with guilt thanks again for listening