Wow. Thank you for providing clarity. I am printing your post on this and keeping it within reach. I have more reasons than I have been willing to acknowledge to come to terms with the death of my old relationship. I believe the prevalent block is my fear that, were I to begin a new relationship, would I ever choose this guy? My doubts about this have me clinging to the old R and trying to resuscitate.
I like your resolve to change yourself in entering this new relationship. Maybe turning my attention in THIS direction is the only real choice I have.