We just got back home, it was a longish flight but OK as far as flights go. Good to be back home
However, I got thinking about one of my posts yesterday, and realise that I actually felt ANGER towards OW - where did this come from? From the very begining, I have been telling myself that this affair is no one's evil design, things have happened and now it is up to us all to deal with the fall out as best we can. But the anger was quite palpable, still is.
I've been keeping such a tight lid on my less attractive emotions, and I think they are breaking free now. I've not even explored the path to forgiveness, because in my mind, the relationship continues, albeit in a muct muted form, so I don't even know what to forgive.
Guys, I'm a mess. Goung to try to catch some shut eye. See you later. Slowly.
