I started out having a frustrating weekend - it's hard trying to plan this wedding stuff without having any real input. I told BF that if he wasn't going to even throw out some ideas, that I'd give up for now. I know I will likely do most of the work, but I didn't want to be spinning my wheels alone. He had said we could go out next weekend to look at a place I'd found previously.
I put a little bit of work into it this weekend - I went out to a park that looked nice, but it wasn't someplace we really could have a wedding with family. So while I was surfing the internet, I happened upon a place about an hour from here that looks perfect. BF seemed to be more enthusiastic about this than anything. It isn't too pricey - we may go over budget a bit, but just because we'd likely invite more people here. It'd be a lot less work for me too, there is someone who coordinates onsite, and it doesn't cost extra. In fact, a lot of the stuff doesn't cost extra - I'm very pleased, I think this will work out.
BF did work quite a bit on the apt. yesterday, and he is going through *everything* to throw stuff out. I am REALLY glad about this. He still has a lot to do, but moving will be much easier because there will be so much less stuff to move. I hope he is really able to get through everything - but I know that a bunch of sensitive material has been dumped.
He did irritate me slightly - we were talking about the wedding, and he said that (jokingly) "I guess ex-OW isn't invited"? Then he brought up another girl that he'd had a brief thing with when we'd first started dating and that he is been friends with since before we met. After that, I just asked (nicely), if maybe we wouldn't have either name come up again for the end of the night so the evening wasn't bad for me. I said it casually, not with any passion or upset in my voice. I just feel like hearing OW name is like a kick in the stomach, and he doesn't realize that. I said I hope she jumped from somewhere high, and he found that amusing. But it really isn't funny to me. I don't think he'd ever let her into his heart again, but I'm also not sure he understands the type of person she is either. Maybe to some extent, but not fully.
Anyway, everything has been good otherwise. I'm starting to do a lot of the housework and such again, but I'm balancing that with having stuff for me too. I work out, I volunteer, etc. - and that isn't changing. I need to have a life that doesn't revolve around BF - and if anything happens with us, I will have that. And even if our R was perfect, it's good to have a life outside of it! It is stressful right now with the wedding stuff, moving, etc. But all of that is temporary.
