I just got back from California last night - I had a wonderful time with my family out there. I am glad I went, but the time went way too quickly.

My birthday was this past weekend, BF did text me, he called a couple of times. I appreciated that. I was hoping that there would be something when I arrived back - like flowers, that was what I was really hoping for (I'd said before it's something I'd like him to do occasionally). There were no flowers, and nothing that had to do with my birthday either. I know his family is planning something for me this coming weekend - his mom is cooking dinner - but it'd just have been nice to come home to something. One flower, one card, one anything!

Anyway...he did pick me up, he was there on time, he carried my luggage (even though I tried to do it), he took me to get take-out Chinese food, etc. He offered to stop by and get donuts too if I'd like that (I chose not to). He gave me a back massage. He IS thoughtful. But it'd just be nice to get an occasional really romantic gesture. I may be needing to buy my own flowers, etc. occasionally - they do make me feel special.

Oh - and I actually did cry a little while we got home. For like 30 seconds, it probably had as much to do with me being tired as anything. I looked around to see if there were flowers, or a small cake in the fridge, anything. Then I broke down briefly. Oh, well. It bothers me that after ex-OW had told him that she'd broken it off with him the first time because he didn't bring her flowers and balloons or whatever to the airport, that he brought her a big stuffed animal (while I was still living with him, last year). I've mentioned previously when returning home that I'd love to get flowers at the airport, and still nothing.
When I'd mentioned it, he was like "where would I have gotten flowers"? Well, he picked me up just before 9pm. He could have gotten them ANYWHERE on his way home from work, or even a drugstore or grocery store on the way there.

I know it doesn't seem like a big thing, but it is to me. I don't need a lot of flowers, I don't need a lot of hugely romantic gestures. I mean, the way he gave me the ring was just to hand me the box and tell me to open it. What he does for me most of the time is great, but I just want a little more on occasion.

Sorry to be venting. Darn it, I wanted flowers!!!!

I do love him, I had a great trip - I know that BF won't ever be hugely romantic (unless he chooses to be, but I'm not holding my breath). But just a little would be nice.