Oh...one other thing. My ex-H found my high school yearbook (my graduating one), I thought it was lost forever. There were a couple of entries I didn't remember - one, a guy who said that I was always nice to him and also said I was cute too. Another, a guy I was friends with who said to "stay voluptious". It really made my Saturday - it's weird how words written when I was 17 can still make me feel good now.

That somehow morphed into a conversation with BF - he has NO problem saying how hot other women are. Most of the time celebrities, other times about women he works with and such. However, he still doesn't give me that many compliments. I said that I liked to hear how nice I looked, etc. He said that I was being insecure. I said, no, I * know * that I look good now. I can still lose more weight, but I know that I'm pretty and attractive. I don't * need * him to tell me it, but I do want that occasionally. Just like flowers - I don't * need * flowers. I know they are impractical and die quickly. But I do want them occasionally.

Mostly compliments come at times we are being more intimate - and I do get them anytime we are. But it'd be nice to hear things other than just at that time.

The one good thing about this weekend - when we helped with the move, I was the only one who was bounding up and down the stairs quickly and without stopping for long. His family was saying how fit I was, and BF asked me afterwards how long it took me from being very unfit to being able to not be winded and such. I just told him that I still can get winded, I up my exercise at the gym so I DO get tired a bit. But I told him that it didn't take long for me to be able to really start feeling good when I exercised - and my fitness level went up significantly at the beginning.

So while that wasn't a compliment, it felt like one. I hope he starts exercising with me (even just walks in the evening).

We also talked about weddings. It's really hard - to have a small one, a large one, or just us. I need to know soon so I can take care of whatever we are having.

Anyway - chatty today. I do love BF. I know that in any relationship, there will be things that are problems and irritations. I also know that the next few months can be highly stressful - moving, hopefully getting married, etc. etc. I need to let him do things his way, and I do things my way as much as possible.