I am sorry about your situation, hopefully you can get everything worked out. To post on your own thread (where more people will see it), all you have to do is to go to a topic - I'd suggest Newcomers first - and hit "post". Just copy/paste the post you made.
You do need to stop begging him to do anything - that will just drive him away. If you do get D, that doesn't mean you can't get M again. It is really important to do what you can to make changes in you. It took me a heck of a lot longer than 3 weeks, but you can at least get started. This would not just be for your M, but for you and your baby first and foremost.
