Yesterday was my second volunteer shift. I LOVE it!!! If I move with BF, it will be a bit further away - maybe 40 or so miles each way, but I plan to do it at least once every two weeks at that time.

I was somewhat insecure yesterday - I haven't known if the conversation I had with BF on Sunday had bothered him at all, but I guess not. He was on IM yesterday and barely put two words together the whole time. I knew he was working, but he was just really, really quiet for hours. I felt like saying "is everything okay", but I didn't. And later, while I was at my volunteer shift, he sent me a really nice text message with love and everything. He also had left a voice mail. So I'm glad I kept my mouth shut, I know he doesn't like insecurity (a little is okay, a lot is not). I called him once I got home, and we had a nice half-hour talk too.

I hate being insecure, but there are reasons for it (just like for most of us here). I had a dream last night that ex-OW found out about us getting married (not sure if it was prior or after us doing so). She started causing problems. What I believe one of her motives was (and I think there were a few) was that she didn't really want him - but she doesn't want anyone else to have him. When we first started seeing each other, she'd already dumped him months earlier and moved on to numerous other guys. But even so, after I started seeing him, she went around asking about me. Then she sent BF pictures of herself. Ick.

So...I think she could try to cause problems. I don't know that she will, hopefully her fiance' (or husband or whatever he is) will keep her preoccupied for a while.

Tonight I'm going walking for a few hours with a friend, so I'll be preoccupied myself.