BF asked if I'd told my roommate about us moving yet. He asked on IM, and I said no - not yet. I really will need to do that this weekend, to give roommate 6 or 7 weeks to hopefully find someone.
But I did tell BF also that I felt vulnerable and I'd waited a bit to make sure that this was sticking (not quite my wording, but good enough). I was living out of a suitcase last year for a couple of months - I bled money and stayed in hotels for a couple of months (one extended stay for much of it). It was awful. If BF changes his mind in a few weeks, I'm the one who's screwed.
I know this sounds completely unromantic, but I have to watch my back too. I love BF, I put him first before - but I need to be first too. When I'm with BF, I feel very comfortable - very ready. When I spend days away from him, I think more about my needs in case this doesn't work. I would probably do this no matter WHO I was with now, though. Best to be prepared...
He did send me a very nice phone text after I said this - just saying that everything would be okay. I do love him.
