Thanks KAW!

I spent Friday night through this morning with BF, it was wonderful. Friday night we met up with friends and also some ex-co-workers I'd not met. He introduced me as his GF. This is the first time he has in nearly a year and a half.

We talked about M, and I definitely don't think I'd want to get M in Vegas. It doesn't seem very commital to me. Here would be fine, but I also love the Tennessee Mountains - and you can get a rental home pretty inexpensively and have someone come in and do the ceremonly. I think that would be incredibly special - and we have a wedding to go to in early October in GA - so that might be a good time. That way we don't have to set aside a separate long weekend (since we have a number of other things to go to this year). And maybe some of his family could join us then too.

Anyway...this is way much more me than a Vegas wedding, and BF is okay with it. He hasn't gotten me a ring or anything yet, but has been talking about M. It's been just about 3 weeks since he told me he loved me again - so we do need a little more time, I need HIM to be sure (though I'm thrilled that we've had a good 3 weeks!). But not too much time - no lengthy living together without a firm committment. And an engagement ring would be really nice, but it's not firm enough. I need a wedding band around my finger - living together really isn't a commitment.

Anyway, we are having fun - I am heading out of town for a few days later this week, so I'll see him then (taking me to the airport, and then picking me up on the 4th).

It is really nice to feel completely loved again, I didn't realize how much I missed it! It's hard to understand how a few months ago he was so definite that he didn't want to be with me, but how things started changing right after that. I just want to be sure that he can stick it out, or that he'll at least try. And every R has risks. I just need to keep being my own person as well. I've changed immensely and I need to keep on with that.

We did hold hands some when we had dinner out last night too...I really enjoyed that. And when I was trying to give him money for something that was added on to his grocery bill, he said that in a couple of months it'd not matter anyway - so don't worry about it (not that he really ever takes the money anyway).