Thanks Debi. The hardest part right now is being away from him - I feel like I need to know that it wasn't just a one-day type thing. If I was at home, we'd be either spending time together or doing the normal chatting and talking, and that isn't happening now. Yesterday afternoon I called him to let him know I was here...and then we chatted later for a little bit (30 or so minutes) online. I told him I'd talk to him or chat with him in the evening, but I tried calling twice and he wasn't there either time (once around 7, another around 10 or so...then I went to sleep). I was hoping he'd call, but he hasn't.

I did mention to him on my way offline that Vegas would be fine if he still wanted that. Otherwise, I didn't bring anything else up. I think for the next 4 days I'm here, I need to just be and not overwhelm him. I really don't enjoy being here very much - it can be difficult at best, and it's hard not to reach out to him. Just like yesterday...I was SO nervous before my flight, and wanted to call him and talk to him. But I didn't. I'm really proud of myself for that.

Like everyone said...patience. I am surprised how many are now reading and writing in my thread. I have to remember also that ex-b said he'd been thinking about this for a while. That was very important to me. I don't want to get all needy now...that is what caused the problems I think to begin with.

He'd given it a lot of thought when he was laying around talking to me. He was really meaning every word he said. I just wish I was there, you know? It's just weird leaving right after a conversation like that. And not talking to him last night. I don't want to make big changes to our R right now, because it's been working.

Anyway...that's it. I just want to see him and not be here, or to at least talk to him. But I don't want to crowd him at all.