Quote: dfb - does this mean we have to stop calling him the ex-b? Ellie
I don't know yet! This all just happened this morning. He said he's been thinking about it a while...and things have been getting closer between us. The awesome thing is...if he does end up changing his mind again...I am HAPPY. He asked me this morning how I was feeling, if I was happy - and I said I already was. Of course, I let him know that it was icing on the cake hearing him say that to me again. And he meant it when he said it.
If he changed his mind tomorrow...I will still be happy that I heard those words again and that he apologized to me over and over.
* If * we got married...and I do believe that love is worth the risk if he wants to marry me...I would rather it not be in a quickie Vegas type wedding. I don't care about cost and such, I would go for a free backyard wedding - no problem. But I'd be concerrned about a little chapel type wedding vs. maybe a nice hotel wedding (even if it is just us). I checked prices online though, and the nice hotels still cost hundreds of dollars for a private wedding. But I'd marry him in any way, if that is what he wants. It's what I want.
He plans to move in a couple of months - not very far, but further than he is from me now. He mentioned me moving there with him.
Anyway...I am getting ahead of myself here. This is just like 14 hours old...the first "I love you". But it was amazing. As were the second, third, fourth, and fifth...etc. etc.
Thank you Ellie for everything. The pink shirt I am sure didn't hurt! Though I'd like to think his reasoning is a lot deeper than that. He told me he'd never find someone else who loves him like I do. That if I hadn't gone anywhere yet, that he knew I'd not just leave him. He said I was very special to him.
We talked some about ex-OW this morning. He had seen her a couple of months ago...along with her fiance'. Ex-b said she's gotten quite a bit heavier. I know she was trying to lose weight last year, I guess she went and put on another 20 or 30 instead (she was about my weight or a little higher to begin with).
We talked a little about what happened. There are things I'd be curious to know, but I have no reason to. I do know they didn't ML. I am grateful for that. He said she was fickle, and I knew that already. Ex-b also said he told her a year ago that if they broke it off, he was going to turn off his feelings for her. That there wasn't any more chances. I mentioned a few things around the apt....a couple of pieces of clothes she left behind, and a stuffed animal (he did tell me he bought it for her). She also has a couple of cups (one mug) there. I said it felt like the stuff was waiting for her to come back. He said that he'd do whatever I wanted with the stuff. He said that he'd planned to give the clothes (and maybe stuffed animal?) back to her when she was here - but they didn't get together for the second day that they planned, and the stuff is still in his apt. That is (I am sure) why I noticed her clothing move a bit and get folded up.
I did ask if he'd wanted her to move here. He'd said they'd thought about that. I asked if he'd wanted to marry her. He said pretty much the same thing. I don't think there was any formal proposal, I think she wanted to be here and he wanted to spend time with her.
Anyway...thanks. He is online now but away from the computer - I have no idea what will happen over the next number of days, weeks, months. I'm honestly at peace in a lot of ways, whatever the outcome. He held me so close last night, and told me he loved me so often...it was wonderful. I love him, and we'll see what happens.
