My W had some fairly major surgery a couple of months ago. I’m ashamed to admit it, but the thought did cross my mind that wouldn’t it be great if she didn’t make it through the surgery.
It's incredibly brave of you to disclose this and will hopefully give a great deal of insight into the pain and frustration an LD can cause.
Also, your desire that she is actually gay is a something I was hoping for too because it would explain our situation in a very simple way where I wasn't responsible at all.
Just keep posting for a while. You sound like you have a lot of personal issues to work through first.
Anywhere is walking distance if you have the time
-Steven Wright
