Holy moly Mooka - mine's the 13th too How about that
I totally understand how you feel about WF, but just keep in mind that he is telling you about her. For me, I used to be far more insecure and nervous about WFs before NG's A. Now, I know I'm ok, in a strange way, I've relaxed a lot more. Detached even.
Keeping my fingers crossed the smear retest turns out ok. Slowly