So much of what you say seems to be a reflection of where I am too.
Quote: But inside...I was wanting more...more...more. I wanted an ILY...but wouldn't go there first. I wanted him to bring up the old stuff and apologize...but wouldn't ask. I churned and wanted more.....rather than just appreciating what was working, that we were healing....and SLOWLY building trust. Every step of the way I have to remind myself to just "friggin" enjoy what is going well.
I'm trying so hard to keep the ole expectation bar low, but just find the darned uneasiness creeping back when I least expect, and therefore totally unprepared for it.
Will be watching your journey with much interest, Mooka. I can learn so much here. Slowly
