Thanks so much for the visit and continued insights and thoughts. I missed you, but follow your advice, often..when you give it to others.
Wondering how things are for you and your personal sitch. You deserve only the very best in life....you have so much depth and insight, I hope one day soon another woman will discover you and you will have all you've ever wanted in a R.
In general, things continue to go pretty well with H and I. He is around full time. We went to his apt yesterday for a couple of hours.... ...like a new get-away! He always wants to come back to our house tho.
had to work a few hours, so asked me to come into the city with him....I just walked around, window shopped, and he called me an hour earlier...was ready to go back home with me. He is sooooo communicative with his day to day schedule, issues, ideas for our future. It's great.
When I am alone, tho....I wonder in my head, WHEN we will have the BIG talk about this past year. We make occaisional references to some of it...but not much to really resolve some of my issues.
A few months ago, my DB C, suggested I be very, very patient while H starts to show signs of moving back into a full M. He shows all the signs, talks about getting out of his lease....family plans for the holidays, retirement ideas, etc....but not the direct issue of him backing way off for over a year. UGH.
I may make an appt soon with my C, cuz I want to bring some of this stuff up, to break down the invisible wall that I can feel from time to time. It is my wall....H gives me no reason what-so-ever of being distant or stuck in what he wants. He just does not talk about it.
I want to wade into the conversation gently, w/o emotion....and start to air out what happened. I know we understand our issues or letting the R go....no nuturing, taking each other for granted, not really caring....just the maintenance stuff. I do get that. I do get my fair share of that. I just need to know more about OW. I know that she no longer works with his co. But, I know she still lives in the city.....works as a consultant, and probably does some business with his Co from time to time.
I know that these issues will need to be talked about....I guess I am just waiting for H to really have fallen back with me "Hook, Line, and Sinker"......that's what the C told me to wait for. Not to push while he is in the "returning" mode.
Just wanted to air my thoughts and journal here. Overall, I am happier and more at peace than I have been in 2-3 years....so I have lots to be grateful for. I am still working on me....staying strong, fit, and spiritually connected.
we will have the BIG talk about this past year. We make occaisional references to some of it...but not much to really resolve some of my issues.
