I have followed your sit for a long time. I have even printed out the stuff from way back. You DB from a distance and that has given me lots of lessons, so many thanks to you! I am three states away from XH, so it is a different challenge.
But this.....
Quote: And he keeps grabbing me and kissing me passionately...making my knees go week.
Thanks for your help in my own part of the fishbowl... you know that your helicopter navigations helped me a great deal. I'll probably continue to pick your brain as we deal with all he fears that will undoubtedly surface.
Until then...
GO YOU!
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Just doing some catching up ... and I continue to marvel at how well you steadily progress at building more strength into the bond between you two and in your own personal growth.
My slant on his "vanishing" is a need to still test for signs that the leash is not getting any shorter over time as he once felt.
Eventho , you may not feel like you handled in the best way, more importantly is ... you continue to to deal with it in a different way than before. So long as there are no signs of old patterns, then what we do is recognized more as an evolutionary process of improvement.
In time I think your going to see his need to "vanish" wane more and more.
Congrats on your school grades! Time to plan a school vacation now before the next course.
So, basically he's poking the monster with the stick to see if it's still asleep.
Heh.
Well, yesterday, he voluntarily told me what their plans were. Fishing and canoeing. I raved about how much fun it sounded like he was going to have. And then teased him about him never having been fishing before in his life.
He taunted me back with telling me that he'd been fishing so often in his life that it wasn't worth mentioning...then started listing all the kinds of fishing he'd done.
Some of which I'd never heard of!
So that was tons of fun.
And then I got him really good in Subway.
He made a comment about how he hates to use checks because there is a papertrail. He prefers cash. So I casually said, "Oh...well in that case, I guess I should stop writing stuff on your money."
He was floored and the look on his face had me giggling madly.
I got him good!
Thanks KAW for your encouragment...I'll keep working at it!
Hey, Pam...where's your new thread??
Don't make me start a new one for you!
I might have to make some silly title!
Hmm...what would a good silly title be....
How about...
Pam is swinging from the chandeliers in her new home!!
Probably not today. Cramping really bad today, feel nauseas and headachey.
Also today is D's off Friday and I am guessing he will sign d papers today. So the PMA isn't where I like to be to start a new thread.
I think this past week D and I have had some friend type of contact. I know that call yesterday morning when he said, "surprise", was the old D.
I am glad, because those are going to be my memories, I am going to DUMP the garbage, determined to do so.
I wish he would have decided to just let the papers sit and move back to our home for awhile so he had some private time to think. I mean after I am out of it! I would still have insurance and Zoloft and detist and new glasses!!! Gee, I'm getting old.
Sorry hijacked your thread.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I understand. Seriously, take the day to pamper yourself and be gentle with yourself.
Just please, do me a favor. Post a message on my thread so that I will know to log onto the BB and toggle your new thread as a favorite. That allows me to recieve the posts as emails so that my time at work isn't interrupted!
Betsey 
Time to plan a school vacation now before the next course. 
