Phoenix,

NO, I certainly didn't expect you to allow your h to come here. I just wondered if someone here asked a question that you took to him, could he answer and have you post it here? Well, don't want to make things weird with you and your h. And besides, we might ask stuff you don't want to know. I guess it doesn't matter in the long run. Honestly, I don't want to know what my h is thinking for fear it's something bad. Right now it probably is. I don't even know which apt he lives in! He gave me back the check book last week and I didn't even open it to see what he bought. I don't even want to know. Like maybe he extended his lease and paid the rent ahead of time.

Yeah, I am keeping busy too. Just getting on with things and trying to be nice to h. I am going out to dinner tonight with a girlfriend and I asked h to take d. He said he'd be glad to so I thanked him greatly and told him what a good dad he is. I didn't offer any info about what I am doing tonight (trying to remain mysterious) and the funny thing is that he never asks. I think he's a lot like me...he just doesn't want to know (or maybe he doesn't care?)

And I just got back from the gym doing a weight lifting class. I've got some real biceps and definition in my arms. Think I'll see if d and her friends want to go to the pool today so I can get a little sun too. I've been spending too much time on these bb and I need to quit obsessing and start enjoying other things. I guess it just makes me feel like I am "working" on something which also detracts away from contacting h. Another good reason for me to look forward to going to school in the fall so I'll be busy with something else.