Thanks for your kind words on my post. I now have legal representation, we really hit it off. I trust her to protect my rights and now I can focus on my emotional well being.
Congratulations on your new home! A pool and a hot tub, do you need a roommate? Enjoy Cheryl
Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none.
Shakespeare
Your sitch sounds wonderful...CONGRATS on the new digs. They sound gorgeous.
I am so glad things are progressing with C. You are handling this so well and she is truly being drawn back to you! Continue your patience and quiet persistence!!
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
Hey Cheryl and Sun - thanks for dropping by - unfortunatly I am not in the best of moods today. I am just going to work on the house for awhile and kinda mark time w/ C.
Rules for Happy Living # 6 - Pray Every Day. Reserve a time in your day to thank God for His Many Blessings and ask for His guidance. (Luke 18:1) This is one I really need to do now too.
Hi all and good morning - still not in a great mood. Last Monday (7-5-04) C called my cell and asked if she could come over to the house. My D and I were working on moving some of my things out of her storage unit to my garage. But I told her that we would love to have her over. When she got there she helped some with unloading some items then we took a break and enjoyed some wine coolers she brought. C and D also made arrangements for D to watch Buster for the rest of the week and weekend so Buster and D's puppy could get to know each other. Then after a little while we all put on our swim suits and hopped into the pool to cool off. My D had to go home to cut her grass so she left C and I there. We did a little hugging and kissing while chitchatting. Then she told me about her 4th, she said we went to see the fireworks in town and that the crowd was really bad, but that she was happy she did not have to fool with the crowd. She then stated that she watched the fireworks from a vantage point across the street in a highrise special club of some kind that cost $2500 / year to be a member of. she then was telling me that she would be out of town this weekend - We are going to Maine, did not know exactly where but since she had never been to Maine she was excited to go.
All this really put a big damper on my desire to hug and kiss. and when she finally left and gave me a hug before getting into her car, I was very lackluster and non responsive to the hug. I then turned and walked to the house without even looking back and waving good bye.
C called me later that night to see how Buster was and then said she still wanted to come over and help me with setting up my house if I wanted her to, my reply was "whatever", then stated that if she wanted to come over then she would be welcome to come.
I had some IM's on Tuesday but still kinda lack luster in response. Then on Wednesday she sent IM about court hearing with her helper. It turned out ok for now. DA said C was crazy to be there helping her but stated that it would help. I reminded C that even when a friend hurts you, you still have to stand by them if you are a true friend.
D called me and told me that C called her to check on Buster and chitchatted for a few but did not ask about me.
Kinda wonder tho, C was very happy about our weekend last month and stated just last week that she wanted us to go to more yard sells, see some DVD's we bought, and to have another great weekend like we had. And she stated that one day soon she and Buster were going to come over and spend the night with me. Yet, she goes out to some real fancy club with someone to watch fireworks and goes to Maine for the weekend. She told me on our last weekend that she was not going around "screwing" everybody out there. but does that mean that she is not physical with anybody else or only just one other?
I don't feel that I can compete with a rich friend if that is what she wants. Since the D she has been to Vagas, California, Denver, on a cruize with sisters, and now Maine, and I believe to Florida but not sure (just a hint of something she said that passed over my head at the time and I really don't remember exactly what, but later in thinking about the statement that is what I felt)
And she told me on Monday that she still goes to a local club that is a pick up joint for the 40-50 crowd but stated that she does not respond to anyone - just does the people watching thing.
I know that I am seeing positives and she is pursuing more but I feel that she may never let go of that freedom to just go, with whoever and whenever she wants. And that maked me feel like I am being used, Big time. If this feeling continues, there will come a time when I will just block her on the IM and not answer any phone calls and just remember the good times and let go of the rest. That time has not come yet tho, but it is close enough that I will not pursue or anything close to that for now. Any contact will be up to her.
Gee you are letting the expectation monster get to you aren't you??
She's calling, she's IMing she's talking to you and you are what? Down in the dumps?
Why so critical? Not moving fast enough? Why don't you plan an excursion with her if you want? Why not show her you can get up and go when you want? I mean, you will be a pilot, you will be able to go whereever you want, whenever you want.
What is REALLY going on with you?
Why are you listening to your FEELINGS? What is the reality of the situation? Too slow?
If you want to call it quits, do... if you are still game, don't.
Hang in there.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
Odga, I'm going to tell you what I told my son last week. He was commenting that his exgf still talks to him. I know he is still in love with her. But he is the one who botched it up, not once but twice. So this is what I said," If she is still talking to you, if she is calling you, it's not over! There is still interest there. Odga, use it to your advantage!
When you can't make a decision because you are torn between your heart and your head, listen to the half with the brain.
They sound gorgeous. 