I guess I don't really believe he's giving me "mercy" sex once we actually get going. Lights are on, eyes are open, he asks me to pose and do specific things, he got so wild on Friday he had to ask me if he was too rough afterward and he is all flushed and saying "yeah,yeah,yeah. JESUS!" or something like that before he orgasms etc. It's just that sometimes before he initiates or when I initiate it's as if I can hear rusty gears squeaking in his head while he decides if sex is something that he wants to do right then and this is rather disheartening.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
