H stopped by my office before leaving earlier, and somehow I sense that he feels like a weight has been lifted from his shoulders....I'm beginning to think the A has ended...He just seems more peaceful and content, I don't know how to describe it, it's kind of an intangible thing, probably someone else wouldnt even pick up on it. He just seemed "at peace" and "at ease". I hope so much I'm right. It would be more than I ever dreamed possible to get to that point this quickly....I'm sure there will be back slides, but maybe now we can really begin to move forward together. he is still wearing is ring, which is exciting to me. Maybe I can start to feel more relaxed now also. It's been such a long, hard haul it feels like, and for me it's only been since October....I cant even begin to comprehend what it must feel like for those of you who have been at this for years. I sure understand what it means when people say it's a marathon and not a sprint....I'm tired today, really bone deep tired. I think it's all starting to come to the surface....H commented this morning about how sleep deprived he was and how he needed to catch up on it...I know last night was the first time in 2 weeks he's slept more than a few hours at a stretch...I guess we've both been pretty tormented.
