Thanks Nevanna, it does help. I'm just surprised I guess at how unsure I feel. I expected it, but I didn't expect it to be this strong. H said last night as we went to bed, he wished he was feeling better and being able to sleep, said "I know I'm kind of grumpy with this and I'm sorry"....so I guess I should take that as reassurance....he hasnt slept well for literally weeks, maybe slept better last night. But his allergies are terrible, his stomach is upset, and he literally has black circles under his eyes down to his cheek bones, and his face looks very drawn and pinched. He obviously is not feeling well, either physically or emotionally, and work is really hectic with trying to get all his pts seen before we go on vacation.
Which brings up another point of anxiety for me. He has to do a presentation at the end of the day today, and then has told me he will probably stay and do paperwork for a couple of hours....till 8 or so. gulp.....I'm still so afraid he'll see her, although I know lots of folks are stuggling with their paperwork and it's worse to be getting ready to leave on vacation.
I guess I need some more reassurance from him, and I don't know how to ask for it with out seeming distrustful or clingy (duh, that's exactly what I am right now!)
