I know this is whistling in the dark, but I guess I need to reassure myself. I have to believe that if H was going to leave for OW, things would be worse, not better over all. that he would be pulling away more than what he is. I don't think he would be saying thanks for things he took for granted before, doing tiny acts of serve, sounding sincere when he says ILY (he's responding again) and sometimes offering that unsolicited, I don't think he would be talking about needing a new lawn mower but wanting to wait until they go on sale in the fall, emailing me to ask how my day is each day, telling me hugs feel good (forgot to mention, last night he said he was glad to hear I'd been wanting to hug him).....talking about needing to simplify OUR life....why would he get coat & trumpet back from OW if he was going there? why would he be crying and depressed after talking to her? (ok, maybe because he has to figure out how to break it off w/me) but why would she be speaking angrily into phone when S overhears her at class and then we get home and H looks like he was hit by a truck? If he was going to go with her, why would he bother to hide his phone calls to her from me - or at least try to-? Why would he be receptive to D's discussion of a B-day party for me in the fall? I would think he would at least be cool or dismissive instead of sounding enthusiastic. Why would he be starting to go back to church with me? Why would he tell his folks he was really proud of me? Why would he initiate kisses now more than he ever has? even if they're little pecks?
I don't know, I still get so afraid and confused, but I just cant believe these are the actions of some one who is getting ready to leave a long term marriage....
Are they? I really don't know....my instincts tell me that's not how he would be acting if he was leaving, but I have no facts/experience to base this on.......
