One, I am trying to figure out what I can do in my own cruciable, and I am having a heck of a time finding something that might actully impact my wifes "Desire". Two, after reading the book and now doing it a second time, I find that I get depressed knowing that my wife has ALL the ability to fix my marriage and I have none. THe fix is that she find a way to desire me, and until she does this, I am at her mercy. The only fix that I can do is to end the marriage and start over. So my choices are to make changes in myself and then PRAY that the wife enters her cruciable and regains her desire for me, or I go nuclear and screw up everynes lives, hers, mine, and my 3 boys, so that I might have the possibility to find happiness with someone else.
Boy, I just love the nuclear option. In order for me to find happiness, I must HARM my own children emotionally. Boy, that is a great option.
