The New Thread...

[Lyrael]

Morning, all - this is my morning off from work, so I don't go in until noon.

Finished some school stuff I was helping H with last night and gave it to him so he could have it when he takes his test today. He was here for about forty minutes, then went back to his place. I felt really weird and sad, so I called him and asked if I could give him a call if S2 got worse (he is getting sick). He was really nice about it, and said he was planning on giving me a call anyway.

Kind of scary thing - I had bad dreams all last night, and so I checked the doors to make sure everything was locked a couple of times, but I woke up this morning and the front door is open just a hair. Now, either I am sleepwalking and don't realize it, or someone opened that door - I left H an IM to ask if he came by to get something, but I am really nervous about this! Nothing is missing, and the door is too heavy for S2 to sneak out and open it on his own, especially when it was locked.

But I did do okay last night, despite how icky I was feeling. I was nice, and under control with H the couple times I did interact with him, and he gave me a couple of really nice hugs while he was here.

I just really hate Fridays and Saturdays, honestly. It's always huge if I can get through those two days without creating problems. I get paid today, so I am going to go grocery shopping and maybe hit the used bookstore for some new reading.

This is a spot in my R where I really need to take things slow, be patient with the process, and not take anything about this for granted. I am so bad at being patient.

Saturday S and I are going to a really boring family reunion out at a park in the middle of the day - that will be VERY hot. I haven't made up my mind as to whether I should extend H an invitation or not - I know he will not be enthused about going, and I hadn't planned on him going, so it would be an opportunity for me to accept a "no" answer from him graciously.

What do you guys think? Should I just tell him I am going and say nothing about him, or should I ask him to go and then be really nonchalant about it when he says no?

Thanks lots,
Myrrh