Okay, DBers, get out your thinking caps. I am having a really hard time keeping my emotions under control right now. My success in taming my temper tantrums has been somewhat interrupted. I am just not feeling very centered right now! I keep initiating these R talks, and I really don't need to. Do you think I am maybe feeling an increased need for attention right now? In addition to the loss of the baby, we are going through some tough financial times right now, so there is that stress as well.
I think that my sadness is coming out as impatience, anger, and irritability. It's really hard for me to just let myself feel the sadness. I am sad and angry, but not at my H - I am upset because I lost this baby. I haven't really cried, except when I first found out, and haven't been able to let myself.
H and I talked briefly last night about my fears of him moving back in, and I told him that I thought I wasn't quite ready, because of how hormonal and emotional I am right now. He wants us to look for a two-bedroom apartment in an apartment complex we both like, so we will probably be doing that soon.
He is still being really understanding. I appreciate that, and I want to focus on positives.
There is also the possibility that I am just expecting too much of myself right now. I tend to do that. I'm just feeling really off right now. Hugs to all, Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
